emotions

while i was writing the last post i started getting off on a tangent about emotions so i decided to make a new post for that

so anyway up untill recently ive only known 4 emotions: contentment(not happy just content), depression, in between depression and contentment, and contempt. since a few tragic moments in my life i haven't felt any other emotion happiness or love anger or hate nor do i really remember these emotions when i was young i was very emotional mostly anger and i never really understood emotions and to me most of them are just words and for dealing with people its the question can i stand to be around you do you hit any of my triggers i live alone and im happy with this because i don't have to pretend to understand social structures of a group or the emotions of people

my friends just fade away from me if i don't see them and all that's left are names of them or basic facts about them its like the reverse of how a windows computer deletes info where it deletes the file name, location on disk, size, etc.. but the actual data is still there until something else wrights over it
i guess thats it for this rant just another in site into how i see the world